Sunday, October 4, 2009
Hindi totoong hindi na kita mahal. Mahal kita tulad pa rin ng dati. Mahal na mahal kahit pa nga hindi ko alam baka bungal ka, kahit pa alam kong magkaibang-magkaiba tayo ng paniniwala sa ilang mga bagay-bagay na madalas pang ikinakainsecure mo, kahit pa nga may mga bagay na ayoko at ikinakatampo mo. Mahal kita kaya patuloy pa rin ako.
Close enough. Close enough kasi slightly tama ka. Sa totoo lang nahihirapan na ako. Baka nga ikaw din hirap na. Nakakapagod na rin pala ang ganitong routine.
Gigising ako,
mag-uusap tayo,
good afternoon,
magpipreppy na ako,
kakain na ako, magbabrush na ako.
O sige mag-i-scan lang ako ng socks,
naban yung ip address ko,
yung webcam mo,
sorry kinausap lang ako ni archie,
tatayo muna ako may maglalaro,
maganda to idownload mo.
Huhuhu late na ako,
Papasok na'ko ha
damihan mo offline messages mo ha,
Out na ako, i really gotta go.
Tell me when was the last time we talked
The one that led to a never ending bliss
The talk that left us giggling
It may be the lousiest yet made us laughing till our breaths burn out
Please remind me for my brain can barely recall the moment
They are forgotten as it is so hard to dig
You've been missing those talks as well aren't you?
I know how you crave for that day to finally come
You and I, only you and I in each other's arms
That will be so much fun
I wonder how you look?
Is your face as fragile as an innocent infant?
How does your skin feel next to mine?
Is your touch as delicate as a soft breeze from the ocean?
How's the fragrance emanating from you be like?
Will it linger in my nostril down to my lungs like a sweet potion I could not resist?
They are nothing but mere petty queries in my mind, waiting to be of known...
and will be left unknown, I guess.
As much as you feel that I don't love you anymore, ganun din ang nararamdaman ko. Alam kong magtatampo ka sakaling sabihin ko sayong hindi mo ako mahal. Babalik pa sa akin ang tanong at mapaparatangang nagdududa. Paratangan mo man ako, gusto ko pa ring malaman. Pagmamahal bang maituturing ang hindi pagtawag o pagtext man lang? Sabagay kasalanan ko, wala kasi akong roaming..mahal! So, mahal pala ang pagmamahal? Pagmamahal ba na alam mong nasasaktan ako, hindi mo pa rin nagawang tumawag? So, tama mahal nga na magmahal. Ang babaw ko talaga..hindi lang nakatawag nagdadrama na.
Pero isipin mo to, kung gusto maraming paraan, kung ayaw maraming dahilan. Pilit kong inuunawa kung ano man ang dapat na unawain. Ilang beses na rin akong nagtangkang sabihin sayo ang dapat mang sabihin. Ngunit sadya talagang napipipi ako. Mahina rin siguro, oo.
Tulungan mo naman ako, Ayoko to. Ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam. Ayoko na emo ako. Ayokong malungkot. Help me, I don't wanna fall out of love with you.
