Friday, September 18, 2009
Fate has its little way to annoy you at times, right Saudi Telecom? I was about to cry in dismay because I can't log in my yahoo messenger. And when I looked at the modem, poof! no internet connection. For some reasons I don't know what, our internet connection vanishes on thursday nights. Napaka-kj hmmf!
Nevertheless, it really pays to be patient. Over twenty attempts to reconnect on the information super highway and viola! The long wait had finally culminated. Both my best friend Detty and I have been longing for this thursday night to arrive so we could chat and catch up for the veryyyyyy longgggg separation.
Many years have passed and a lot had changed physically, emotionally, intellectually (at kung anu-ano pang lly hehehe) yet the bond of a true friendship is still there...alive and warm. She can still remember how we savoured that corned beef from KSA each time she visited our house now we realized that a Philippine-made Argentina is way better. I never knew she still have in possession every single letter I gave her way back our elementary years. Even the simplest stationeries that we used to collect are still intact in her pack rat. I do have some memoirs kept too. If only I have with me the pictures we have been taking during those days I would have shown it all. One thing is certain, we would guffaw to see how we used to look before. She was the skinny girl while I was the not so skinny-short one and now she gained a bit while I'm still the short-one! (haha).
We might have found new friends and acquaintance yet in our hearts still remains that we are BFFs
I am so happy I finally talked to her after 12 long years. The years we missed were turned into a three hour chat. Somehow we managed to catch up about what have had happened in our lives. We had the same College Alma Mater, took the same course but unfortunately she didn't finish yet. She now has a charming and bright 6 year old child. Woooww...I wish I also have one. But naaaaahh how could I? If I would have been killed by my Hitler father if I had given birth at an early age.
She is now in Dubai for a duration similar to me. She arrived there on Feb 5, 2008 while I arrived here on the 7th. And that means we will be going home almost at the same time. God! I'm so excited!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Nakakainis ka! Hindi mo ako pinatulog ng maayos. Ang aga-aga ko nagising dahil sayo. Ang hirap ha?..Ang sakit-sakit kaya, hindi nga ako makahinga dahil parang may nakadagan sa dibdib ko. Pagulong-gulong lang ako sa higaan ko. Naiiyak na ako kasi kailangan ko ng tulog pero di ako makatulog dahil sayo. Parang awa mo na tigilan mo na akong heartburn ka!On the other hand, my heart is burning and my conscience is bogging. Paano ba linisin ang maduming konsensya? Sabi ni Shelley i-safeguard ko raw. May pagkacorny pero patok pa rin sa akin yun kaya sabi ko wahahahaha 
. Sorry Mr.Tarwy My God I'm so bad..please forgive me for I have sinned.
. Sorry Mr.Tarwy My God I'm so bad..please forgive me for I have sinned. Monday, September 14, 2009
Friendship indeed surpasses the test of time. It never die nor fade away. You may part ways yet time will also bring you back together.
Yesterday, I dreamed of my best friend way back in elementary years. She just came from a vacation and was very happy and excited to hug and tell me that she missed me.
The last time we saw each other was when I visited my cousins in Valenzuela sometime in 1997 . We were riding in a jeepney when somebody was running after us. It was her. (O diba parang eksena sa Meteor garden, hinahabol ni Dao si San Chai).
We were classmates in my four elementary years in Caruhatan. I was then a transferee, a bit timid and shy for I don't know anyone. Not until someone approached and talked to me. We clicked and tagged ourselves as "Campus Girls" together with 2 other girl friends. Campus Girls was a hit movie back then, I was Vina and she was Donna. We were carefree little ladies. I used to stay at their home after class, of which my father didn't know until now. If he had known then he wouldn't have allowed me. He is such a Hitler. If we're not in the mood of doing homework, we would just kill the time by watching home tv shopping, eating lucky me pancit canton which I had no idea how it's being cooked (simple lang pala) and take pictures with my good old film-packed camera (Hindi pa uso ang digicam noon kaya laging sumasakit ulo ng papa ko sa pagpapadevelop ng pictures namin hehehe). Those were the days when we knew nothing but fun. I so miss it. I so miss her.
The dream was so vivid and I felt the emotion too much that I immediately looked for her on facebook as soon as I woke up. I typed her full name and I was overwhelmed to see her! God! I missed this girl so much. She said she was looking for me as well from the very day she made her facebook account. We exchanged messages already and is hoping to finally catch each other online on yahoo messenger. It will be a lengthy catching up. Imagine? We were apart for more than a decade. I'm so excited to talk to her. Thank you facebook, I owe you a lot.
"Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end."
---Unknown
Friday, September 11, 2009
Malapit na pala akong magbirthday. Aba! Naalala mo na pala. Ikaw pa nagpaalala sa akin, nakakatuwa naman. O mas angkop bang sabihing nakakatawa naman?
Magdadalawang taon na ang lumipas nang tila ba balewala sayo ang birthday ko. How pathetic I was two years ago. I was waiting for you till midnight hoping you'll make it possible to see me right before the date change. Ngunit pinalipas mo ang araw na iyon nang di man lang gumawa ng paraan na magkita tayo. Ang sakit pero pinilit ko na lang paniwalain ang sarili ko na busy ka sa bago mong trabaho. O mas angkop bang sabihing busy ka pala sa bago mong gusto?
Mag-iisang taon na ang lumipas nang tila ba balewala sayo ang birthday ko. How pathetic I was one year ago. Oo, nagtext ka pero hindi 'yun ang gusto ko. I was waiting for your call and say that magic words yet it didn't happen. Ang sakit pero pinilit ko ulit paniwalain ang sarili ko na baka wala ka ng load. O mas angkop bang sabihing, Sh*t! Itigil ko na nga tong kahibangan na to!
After 3 years in a relationship, I finally decided to stop my martyrdom over you. I deserve someone who will love and value me the way I should be. I deserve someone who will think of me every minute and every second of his existence. I deserve someone who knows how to make me happy on my most special day. I deserve more than you.
Tahimik na ang mundo ko malayo sayo. Pinipilit kong maging normal ulit ang buhay ko na wala ka. Pinipilit tanggapin na may mga bagay sa mundo na kahit gaano mo pa kagusto ay hindi mapapasayo. Pinipilit alisin ang nararamdaman, heto nga ako sa buhanginan baka sakaling makalimutan ka man lang.
What in the world is your problem? Tatawag-tawag ka ngayon at ipapaalala na magbibirthday na pala ako? At ano tong hihintayin mo ako at kung wala akong boyfriend ay magpapaengage na tayo? Na hindi pa rin nagbabago ang pagtingin mo. I was like, am I on candid camera? O Wow mali kaya? Baliw ka pala e. Nakakainis, gusto kitang suntukin hanggang makatulog ka at puro pasa yang mukha mo.
Mas nakakainis pa hindi ikaw, kundi ang sarili ko mismo. After all those years, narealize ko hindi pa pala ako nakakalayo sa anino mo, hindi pa pala ako nakakamove-on, na kinakabahan pa rin ako sa tuwing magtitext ka, nanlalamig sa tuwing naririnig ang boses mo. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko. I was still as pathetic as I was 2 years ago. :(
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I never thought I could hate someone like this. More than the hatred that I had felt when my ex-boyfriend left me for an older lady almost two years ago. A hatred to the extent of not greeting her a happy birthday a couple of days ago. A hatred that made me laugh when I saw a friendster account on her name with vulgar and naked pictures. A hatred that I am not certain when to end (or is it gonna end?)
I laughed. Yes, I do admit it I have my dark side sometimes. I laughed not because I was happy to see her being humiliated in the cyber world. I laughed because the pictures were obviously edited and it wasn't professionally done. Her face was just inserted on someone else's body. The edges were rough, the skin tone is not even and it looked like a cheap tabloid. Someone who did it definitely hate her more than I do. He/she even posted a shout out saying "I am the biggest whore in KSA, call me at 05********". So that was the reason why she suddenly changed her number. I thought it was because she wanted to stay away from her cyber boyfriends. And now we finally concluded why she refused to have a room mate despite the fact that all the other rooms here are already full. She's too selfish staying comfortably alone in her room while all of us are sardine-like.
A little part of me says that she deserves to be treated that way. It was her bad karma after fooling other people and claiming to be not married to her boyfriends. An immoral act, an infidelity. She's not nice to all the girls here. I can't believe that there exist an attitude as bad as hers. Yet it is still disappointing that she got easily taken advantage or harassed in this hi-tech generation. Somebody could just grab your picture out of the blue, do some simple editing and viola, a pornographic material of you as the victim. It is not fair and it is violating our human rights. Now it makes me think,shall I erase all my pictures in friendster and facebook?
She's only one out of thousand other victims out there. I wonder how can this harassment be stopped? Though I hate her, I still wanted that account to be deleted because it is very offending. Hence I reported it and I hope that friendster will do something regarding that matter.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
I happened to see a post in my friend's wall over facebook a while ago. Here it goes:
This story is extremely sad.
A lady, with her husband, was planning a weekend trip across the Mexican border for a shopping spreed. At the last minute their baby sitter canceled, so they had to bring along their two-year-old son with them. They had been across the border for about an hour when the baby got free and ran around the corner. The mother went chasing but the boy had disappeared. The mother found a police officer that told her to go to the gate and wait. Not really understanding the instructions, she did as she was told. About 45 minutes later, a man approached the border carrying the boy. The mother ran to him, grateful that he had been found. When the man realized it was the boy's mother, he dropped the boy andran..
The police were waiting and got him. The boy was dead.In the (less than)
45 minutes he was missing, he was cut open and all of his insides removed and his body cavity stuffed with COCAINE. The man was going to carry him across the border as if he were asleep. A two-year-old boy, dead, is carded as if he were a piece of trash for somebody's cocaine. If this story can get out and change one person's mind about what drugs mean to them, we are helping.
This story has been circulating in the world wide web as I checked it before finally posting it here. Gazillions of similar writings were already published. It maybe true, it maybe hoax. Nevertheless, both my room mate and I were angered by the story and the video. How cruel and inhumane some people can be for the sake of money. I pity the innocent child, a victim, unaware of the gluttony of these monsters. I also pity the parents, it must have been very difficult for them to lose their baby in a very tragic way. I despise the druglords, the pushers, and the people who's actually into this evil drug. They don't deserve to live in this world.
If you have a home PC, send it out there, too. Let's hope and pray it changes a lot of minds. The saddest thing about the whole situation is that those persons who suffer are innocent and people we love..God Bless you in this united effort to spread the word. You just might save a life! May God bless you and keep you in his loving embrace.
(posted in green font is unedited from the original facebook article. I just wonder why the title of this youtube video is "Why cocaine use is beneficial to children?" Is is a sort of a satyre? I don't get the point.)
Friday, August 28, 2009
"Pagbilang kong sampo nakatago na kayo. Isa! Dalawa! Tatlo! Apat! Lima! Anim! Pito! Walo! Siyam!....Sampo!"
Ayan na si Jona, papalapit na. Nakakakaba. Bawat hakbang niya ay tila ba unti-unting nagpapalakas ng kabog ng aking puso. Wari'y bolang tatalbog mula sa aking dibdib. Isang hakbang na lang at matutunton niya na ako. Huwag naman sana niyang masilip ang sulok kung saan pilit kong isinisiksik ang munting katawan. Palakas ng palakas ang tibok ng aking puso. Magkahalong kaba at saya ang aking nadarama. Kaba dahil kaunti na lang ako'y kanya ng makikita at saya dahil maaaring lumayo na siya. Lumibot ang kanyang mga mata, hayun at papalayo na. Kaba ko ay dagliang nawala, Ayos! Hindi niya ako nakita. Iba ang kanyang nataya.
Marahil labinglimang taon na ang nakakaraan nang huli akong maglaro ng taguan. Iyon ang panahon na hindi pa uso ang psp, wii, laptop, xbox at iba pang "hi-tech" gadgets sa mga kabataan. Iyon ang mga panahon na patok pa ang patintero, luksong tinik, ten-twenty at habulan. Iyon rin ang panahon na masarap magbabad sa arawan sa kabila ng amoy-araw na mga katawan. Panahon na kahit hindi ako pwedeng maligo sa ulan ay nakakatakas pa rin kung minsan. Hindi ako magaling sa habulan at lalong di ko kayang tumalon ng mataas kaya sa lahat ng larong pambata taguan yata ang pinakanahiligan. May talento ako sa pagtago, kahit sino sa aking mga kalaro ay hirap akong matunton.
Makalipas ang maraming taon, hindi ko inaakalang gagawin ko pa pala ito. Ang magtago. Ang pinagkaiba, hindi ito laro. Bakit ba ako nagtatago? Bakit ayaw kong matunton?
Ikatlong pagtatangka ko na ang gumawa ng blog sa taong ito. Parehong nabigo ang dalawa. Pareho rin ng dahilan kung bakit bigo. Ayaw kong tinutukso niya ako. Ayaw ko ring pagdudahan dahil lang rito. Para wala ng isyu kaya hayun, binura ko. Mahirap. Mabigat sa dibdib. Weird pero sa mga sandaling binubura ko ang mga blog na ito ay tila isang eksena sa pelikula na kung saan nagpapaalam sa isa't isa ang mga bida. May kaunting luha pang nangilid sa aking mga mata. Ang drama.
Tama nga sila. "Once a blogger will always be a blogger". Hindi pa nakakalipas ang isang linggo ay nangangati na ang mga daliri ko. Gustong tipain ang mga letra sa keyboard na ito at ang monitor ay tila ba nangungusap, isang nakakaengganyong paanyaya. Kaya hindi na ako nagpatumpik-tumpik pa. Magbablog ako. Magbablog ako.
Siya na rin mismo ang nagsabing huwag kong sabihin sakaling gumawa ako ulit ng bago. Hindi naman siguro siya magagalit. Hindi naman siguro siya magtatampo.
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